ah fucktheworld %$#@! i dont know why the hell am i only feeling so bad/sad/horrible now.

i knew this few days ago but noooo, why am i only feeling like that now. i didnt expect myself to get so fucking affected by something i thought was minor to me. i thought it didnt matter anymore, i thought i wont feel like crying because of this subject again. i thought i was damn strong already. shit i feel like ranting to the whole world, crying fucking loud, killing someone, cursing that bloody person that did this to me and i feel like becoming a nun right now.

walaoooo. i swear i had prefer life of a nun than life being haunted by the person i hate the most. i dreaded this for so damn long. nooo i hope it isnt any stupid karma thing. i know i have been rather guailan these few days or maybe this whole year. but this isnt the bloody reason to pin me down with such a horrible shit thing like this. this shouldnt be that bad to trigger the karma right. this starting of the year was already quite bad. my phone actually died on me again(1 or 2 weeks after repair). this is like bad enough already.

i seriously hope i have no feelings and i want to be a wooden block right now. okay fuck the whole world up, i dont want school, FOREVER.